Anti-Autism: Why I don't want to hear the excuse for abuse

All adults are capable of child sexual abuse, without exception. Most all of us as adults have done something to wrong or abuse a child. However, Anti-Autism means that I don't want to hear the label "autism" as an excuse for abuse. I simply imply my autism, and most of the time, people get the message.

I was an obvious abuser in relation to children, meaning I bragged about my crushes everywhere, not knowing the boundaries in those situations. I approached several young girls in the course of conducting myself as an abuser. The victims came one after the other, like train cars. Some of them were flattered, and others were offended by my course of conduct.

I was an "I am a good person" abuser, with my "good person" attitude surrounding my autism identity. I considered specific child victims to be my "best friend", with me placing children children in the role of both caregiver and spouse. Being a "good person" abuser makes you a miserable wretch, because when you take up a "good person" attitude, you feel deserving of things going your way, and when things don't go your way, you throw a massive hissy fit, usually in the form of an entitled demand. The idea is to lose the good person attitude, and come to know that you are a depraved and decadent pedophilic adult deserving of nothing but non-existence. I was most miserable person when I saw myself as a "good person". Now, I let others decide whether I am good or bad in nature. The stressor that drove my offenses against children was anxiety, meaning I pursued children to dissociate from my parent trauma, by way of indulging in a "love" addiction where I would develop age-inappropriate crushes on children. My anxiety was entitled in nature, meaning if things didn't go as planned, I was scared and anxious.

Most pedophiles know the boundaries, and thus though they have a risk, their risk is actually quite low compared to non-pedophilic adults. However, 1 in 4 pedophiles have had sexual contact with a child. Most of those offenders have a mental disability, and many times, are negligent parents. Most autistic sex offenders get arrested for sexual harassment. 

The problem leading to victims not having enough justice is that, here in Pennsylvania, sexual harassment is a summary offense, meaning a traffic ticket. The key to getting the police involved is keeping a harassment log. Once you rack up enough offenses, then you can turn it over to the police. From there, the police will immediately take your case before a district justice - it all was decided, but at least they let the offender have their last word in. This is Pennsylvania specific advice - check the laws of your home state.

Little things are capable of big things. Most of the time, autistic sex offenders don't commit rape. But, they often commit acts of sexual harassment. Think along the lines of following a child home from school, hoping for a "friendship". A common excuse for such offenders is "I wanted to be her friend", and then you look at their features, and can tell they have autism. They are victimizing themselves by appearing autistic when it suits my case.

I am a depraved and decadent pedophilic adult who deserving of nothing but DEATH and PUNISHMENT merely for existing in relation to children. Those of us with autism ARE capable of big things. Autistic abusers are the hardest of all of the sex offenders to treat, as they identify by their crushed to the core. When I was attracted to a young girl, she was my whole world, and then I bragged about my crushes to everyone. She meant everything to me, from the moon and back, but in a flirtatious type of way. Today, I just say "she means the moon and back" and that's it, without flirting with children, thus keeping my distance. Children are like God to me, meaning I must answer to their court when they rebuke me. Sometimes, the most loving thing you can do to a child is leave them alone.

The depraved and decadent, defiled autistic sex offenders who sexually assault or rape a child will not inherit the Kingdom of God! Let them descend into torrents of Hell-fire! Repent!