Why "religious pedophile" should be a thing of the past (a confession of a former abuser)

Many people have little understanding of the world of pedophilia and child sexual abuse. Most people would be shocked to know that not every adult who molests a child goes to prison for it, nor are most abusers even caught. I myself am a former abuser, and I escaped the grasp of the law.

How do I feel about not getting caught? Mixed. I want to go to prison, yet I don't at the same time, meaning I believe the summary offenses I committed against children are deserving of more than the law offers, but I have that self-interest that all of us adults must have to be properly controlled by the higher authorities.

Pedophilia is a clinical disorder, marked by repeated sexual fantasies, urges, or behaviors involving sexual activity with a child under age 14. However, the word means something very different to police and law enforcement, many of whom have the disorder. "Pedophilia" refers to, in forensic science, to a specific set of religious beliefs surrounding the control of children in a certain, step-ladder way.

I myself was an agnostic atheist when I committed my crimes. I was an antisocial "flirt", and if I put it this way in children's rights language, I am guilty. I would flirt with young girls as an older teenager and younger adult by waving in a flirtatious way, with intent to flirt and be obscene in that way. On several occasions, I approached a child and asked for contact information.

What were my religious beliefs? None. Nothing. Nada. Just a bowl that I filled with legal information, but there were holes in the information where certain, more vague laws, I could rationalize around. My religion was the law itself, and apart from that, my identity as an autistic/someone with autism, meaning when if I were to get in any real trouble (which my victim stance prevented). I would have likely used "autism" entitlement to defend myself.

Child sexual abuse has a religious definition. The Greek root word translated "fornication" is πορνεία (Latin: porneia) and had a rich, nuanced definition, which involves all of the sex crimes under the Law of Moses enumerated in one word. Basically, anything that the child perceives as sexual input is adult fornication, meaning child sexual abuse, regardless of the child's willingness to participate. Nothing that the child perceives as abuse should be ignored due to the perpetrator's religious beliefs. 

There are plenty of reasons for sexually abusing a child besides religious control. How about the adult simply got into a situation where abuse was opportune, and because they didn't prepare beforehand, they went off on the child sexually, usually a teenage girl, usually by a man. 

An adult should not put to bed their sex drive towards children under age 18, and should not have mandatory minimum ages in their rules concerning fantasy. Fantasy of any kind is about the unreal, meaning the unrealistic many times, so let the pedophiles and other adults sexually attracted to adults focus on their sexual attractions to children. This will make men in particular more egalitarian with children overall. 

I myself did what I did, but I didn't do my time. I advocate against my self-interest as an adult in relation to children. Anything that the child perceives as sexually motivated should be called sexual abuse under the law. Not abusing a child sexually is easy if you are an adult - just don't be alone with a child, and maybe fantasize beforehand if you HAVE to be with a child you don't like. Offending is like digging a hole in a certain place, and leaving it there. You either fill it in, or abandon it from the get go. I filled it up. I was a correctable abuser, meaning the children corrected me, and I obeyed. The more I was corrected, the more I filled in the hole that I dug.

Let the depraved and defiled adult fornicators of children who haven't learned their lesson BURN in everlasting Hell-fire! Repent!