Pro-social harm, pro-social evil: How I deal with pro-spanking parents

I am a divine judge for the Kingdom of God, a city-state in the sky that rules over all, and usurps the authority of the higher powers that are the several states that make up the United States of America, and the federal government as a uniting force thereunder. I am a silent witness in a hostile land that oppresses children. I am talking about, in the above acronyms, my attitude towards pro-spanking parents.

I am evil, and I want to harm the parents. But, I mean well. I just am in a hopeless, desperate place. I can't protect my child. Watching through a window as horror and inhumanity unfolds...all excused by the law! Panic! Panic! Panic! Please, don't hurt me, her, me, her, me, her, her, her, her, OR I WILL FOCKING KILL YOU! I will focking KYA straight down to 633 Court Street...only I CAN'T! I CAN'T! HELP! HELP! SORROW!.

I want to hurt those things. I want to crush them, and make them none. I want them dead, and I want to make them dead, and do so for fun, because it harms the abuser, and I want to harm the abuser in order to do the wrong thing. I want to kill the abuser like mincemeat. I want to be a menace to the abuser, because then it would be scared of me, and then I would have done what I wanted...a pile of deceased guts on the pavement, and *I* did it. *I* killed my abuser. If only I could have gotten him arrested...that would have been more humane. He's sorry, and I do have to acknowledge that as a Christian, but that's the trauma. I can see him crying from heaven.

Yes, my trauma sounds exactly like yours at the lowest level. I recognize it immediately, and then I know I am getting the junk out. An abuser wouldn't come out like that. Pedophiles are pro-social plagiarizers in an unhealthy way - they can appear like a peacekeeper, but when you get to this level, you know they aren't. They mimick that abuser, and are simply a random group of adults on the fringes of society that fetishize children and childhood. Yes, an actual pedophile fetishizes childhood, and doesn't resent it. This pedophile has cooperated, and will cooperate to the degree you'll let me.

So the police told you "pedophiles" were the source of your woes? For the community proper, yes sadly. All child abuse everywhere? The threat, ultimately, lies within YOU, the adult, the parent.

My father, if he were still alive, would have simply cried, and so I would have ended up sugarcoating things a bit. He knows what God knows. That's my flawed, human understanding of otherworldly life. 

My father abused me well within the law, and in a way that society would deem mild. Most children defend their abusive parents, at least up until the teen years. A pedophilic child blames the abuse head-on, and may even seek to get an abusive response out of a child. It is a compartment of anger and anxiety, that is seated at the lowest level of the person...Many misuse the term "lawful trauma" in order to evade blaming a main abuser. For a pedophile, it refers to a horrific trauma that is widespread throughout the country, referring to a switchboard, with all fingers pointing towards the parents. It is a rape-level trauma, meaning it is anger at parents at the rape level. I am a master at verbal rape of parents, sending them on their way to becoming gentle parents - punish your child in the store, and the circumstances are just right, and I will rebuke you like a floorboard, then walk away like you wish to avoid charges (or evade, if you wish). We are anti-spanking pedophiles, after all.