Understanding antisocial pedophilia: Why most pedophiles are not antisocial

Many people think all pedophiles have an antisocial form of autism. Most people are afraid of pedophiles, and are in fear of meeting a pedophile. However, research shows that most pedophiles are good, upstanding adults. Most sexual offenders are not pedophiles, but simply are rapists. I have no sympathy for a child rapist or child sexual assailant. I, however, want to shine a light on my own past indiscretions, as I don't represent all pedophiles except in contrast to their virtuousness (and my offensiveness).

I myself am an antisocial pedophile, or so I have learned over the years. I thought I was fine until I visited the Virtuous Pedophiles forum in late 2014. I immediately saw how everyone then had it together, and I was still behaving out of impulse. Most pedophiles are not cheery, happy-go-lucky people. Most pedophiles have a real burden that they are stuck with, like baggage. I myself was a goofball, in a way that would never be tolerated on children's rights grounds.

I myself operated as a zig-zag groomer. I didn't want "in" but instead "around". My crushes on children came one by one, like train cars, with everyone around me hoping for the caboose. I myself had autistic fixations on young girls, with me talking about them incessantly. I would start out by asking the girl her name, address, and phone number. I, from there, wanted to visit a young girl, and have a sleepover with the child victim.

I would follow young girls around like I was a sick puppy, looking to them for reassurance. I felt understood by some of them, in a way I shouldn't coming from a child. I myself was a parentifying abuser, meaning I put my crushes in the mother role, where they shouldn't be. 

Most pedophiles do not abuse children. 3 out of 4 pedophiles have had no sexual contact with children, even to the level of sexual harassment. I myself have to atone, because I made other pedophiles look bad. Most pedophiles, when they disclose, are tearful and anguished. When a pedophile discloses their condition in a tone-deaf way, and doesn't seem to understand the gravity of the self-accusation, know that such is how most abuser pedophiles operate.

Child sexual abuse can be understood as starting with approaching children for sexual or flirtatious reasons. I myself approached young girls for sexual or flirtatious reasons, and once they perceived my approach, it became child sexual abuse. I was called a "creep" once by a child. However, seeing a child anguished by my gaze taught me to avoid children. 

Most child sexual abusers are not pedophiles. I bring up my story to apologize to the online pedophile community for making them look bad with my past indiscretions towards children. Most pedophiles are deserving of being called "virtuous". I am not deserving of such praise or accolades, as I am simply a non-offending pedophile, not a virtuous pedophile. 

I myself am toxic, with my toxicity coming in mode format. If I get a crush on a child, it will be obvious, with me screaming from the hilltops how "great" a young girl is, not respecting her privacy by putting her name out there, idealizing children by putting them on a pedestal. Most pedophiles know better than to make their crush on a child obvious. So, when an adult starts talking nonstop about a child, think pedophile, but the wrong kind. When a pedophile is anguished or anxious about their attractions, think pedophile, but the right kind. 

I defend pedophiles unlike myself, as most pedophiles are the last of all adults to commit abuse against a child. Most adults harbor more risk of abusing a child in the worst of ways than pedophilic adults. Most adults do have an abuse habit in relation to children, even if they don't see their behavior as abusive. Most pedophiles are far less likely to abuse a child than an ordinary adult, because most pedophiles don't ger angry at children. Most pedophiles are at risk of being overly affectionate with children, and even then, most pedophiles know the boundaries around children. 

Pedophiles are clearly a minority. Only 1-2% of the male population are pedophiles. However, 1 out of 10 children are sexually abused before their 18th birthday. All those children can't have been abused by a pedophile. Most of the time, sex crimes against children are opportunistic. When they are pedophilic in nature, the police don't usually arrest the offender, due to the mental disability in the abuser. Most of the serial sexual offenders against children are simply serial rapists.

Pedophiles are worth defending. Most children with the disorder are prime targets for sexual predation. The most oppressed of all pedophiles are still children. A common form of child grooming these days is anti-pedophile grooming. Usually, it involves a relative or distant friend of the family misrepresenting themselves to the police, making a false police report, in a way that the police would know none the better. It usually happens in predator policing jurisdictions. I myself am the victim of this type of abuse. This page is known to the police in the wrong way. I know who to blame, however, and it isn't the police. I instead blame my aunt and uncle for predicting falsely a string of rapes. Usually, abusers of pedophiles make up these statistics to convince the police falsely that a threat exists where there is none. Many adults would sexually abuse a child if they knew they were predestined to become a pedophile, not knowing what pedophilia is.

The depraved and decadent, defiled pedophilic adults who rape or sexually assault children will not inherit the Kingdom of God! Let them descend into torrents of Hell-fire prepared for Satan and his accomplices! Repent!