Anti-Autism: Why "autism" is not an excuse for child abuse

Many parents think that a sexual abuser of children uses the word "pedophile" as an excuse for child abuse. This is a common theory amongst American parents. Most sexual abusers are parents, with 80% of sexual abusers of children being parents. However, child sexual abuse occurs in both the authoritarian and permissive of parenting setups. Most abuser pedophiles are negligent parents. If I did not stumble across the children's rights community, I may have continued to be the permissive abuser that I am.

Anti-Autism does not mean that we don't want to hear about it at all. However, if you are using autism as a medical excuse for sexual abuse, or any other child abuse for that matter. I myself am a convicted adult in regards to all of the autistic child abuse that I did commit. I have taken a fearless moral inventory into all of the children that I abused. I found myself doing the Twelve Steps for my pedophilia. My main moral defect is stated best in the DSM-5 entry on pedophilia - they might as well have my picture there.

I was a form of toxic autistic known as an "I am a good person" abuser. When your core self-belief about yourself is that your autism makes you a good person, you come to take up a deserving attitude towards life, and when you don't get what you feel that you deserve as an entitled autistic, you throw a temper tantrum, usually involving an entitled demand as to what you feel that you deserve. Another facet of an "I am a good person" abuser is letting yourself off the hook when you shouldn't. Parentifying abuse was where I left myself off the hook, because I wore that autism label, and my belief was that anyone who could call themselves "autistic" was a good person deserving of good things. But, the fact that bad things came my way, with that sort of entitlement, made me a weakling, as opposed to stand up Max that I am today.

I am not a good person, and I don't mean well around children. I don't pretend to mean well around children. I am a depraved and decadent pedophilic adult who is deserving of nothing but DEATH and PUNISHMENT merely for existing in relation to children, as well as the God that protects them. Maybe I have earned my keep with the children in this children's rights community, but that is for the children to decide. I do not accept another adult's opinion on whether I am a good person or not. If a child/victim does praise me, like they often do in fact, I am grateful for such praise, because I am deserving of absolutely none of such praise. I acknowledge being praised by children, however.

One good thing I can say about myself is that I am a cycle-breaker. All of the beliefs I have now help me break the cycle. The abuse would have came out the other way, as a form of negligent parenting. I have zero capacity for any form of adult anger, meaning I don't get mad at children. When they are mad at me, I am scared, and then I don't do that in relation to a child again. I have zero triggers as an adult in relation to children, as nothing a child can do annoys me. I just might find a daughter in particular to be sexually attractive. I myself am not a child of neglect, but instead had a punitive upbringing. When you see negligence where there is no family history of child neglect, think pedophilia, but not the right kind. I believe in determining child abuse based on the child's perception, allowing the child to draw the line as to what is abuse. I myself am an abuser of a different kind than the angry or vengeful form of abuser. I took children seriously, but in a way that put them in the role of caregiver or spouse. I wanted to be her friend, but in the way that appointed her as a caregiver. What set me straight was when I scared a child at the pool concession stand of my community pool. I was preparing myself for the police to come and cite me for disorderly conduct. Now that I have learned my lesson in terms of treating children with respect, I take children seriously as extensions of God meaning the "least of these". I am, however, deserving of prison merely for my track record in relation to children. Even if the state excuses my abuse, I am culpable for the moral crimes I have committed against children.

Autism is not exactly the benign condition that it masquerades as. Most individuals with autism should not become parents. Most with autism interested in having children are pedophiles. Most pedophilic sex offenders are not serial abusers on all sides - that type of abuser is rare, and uses their power and influence to gain access to children for purposes of sexual abuse. Most pedophilic sex offenders have a lower than average IQ, and usually have autism on top of pedophilia. Most of such parents are negligent parents, not authoritarian parents. I myself, before discovering gentle parenting, might well have become that negligent parent. I didn't trust any parents at that point. Now, I trust gentle parents, and if I have to watch a younger family member, I think I could do it, but the child would have to invite me to play games, or else play amongst themselves with my supervision. I think I was do best with little boys, around the toddler age, and I would listen to and wipe away their tears - I am not attracted to young boys, but have paternal feelings for both sexes of children.

Most pedophilic sexual abuse exists on the surface, not as a narcissist. Most power and influence abusers are pedophiles, but the repressed type. Most pedophilic sex offenders have a mental disability, where children are placed in the caregiver role, and from there, they were raped or sexually assaulted. The most common pedophilic motive behind rapes or sexual assaults is play rape, meaning the offender wants to play a game that isn't a game at all - it is rape. Some survivors of actual pedophiles want to protect their abuser, because their abuser was a "familiar" form of abuse. Other survivors see themselves as bigger than their abuser, in a vengeful way, and become disability haters. Both traumas are valid. I do pity any anger directed at me due to my status as an autistic pedophile, because it doesn't have to happen. I myself hold pedophilic individuals with autism to a higher standard, as 3 out of 4 pedophiles have never sexually abused a child. Non-offending pedophiles are more the norm than the exception, and so any pedophile abusing a child should be condemned roundly. I myself atone for making the Virtuous Pedophile online community look bad. I actually used the word "pedophile" in celebratory tense, in the form of being an obvious abuser of the "good person" variety. Most pedophiles are anguished, whereas I had one-sided conversations about my crushes on children, not understanding the gravity of what it means to be a pedophile. 

The depraved and decadent, defiled sex offenders with autism will not inherit the Kingdom of God! Let them descend into torrents of Hell-fire! Repent!