Autism is a highly sensitive topic in today's day and age. Most people know someone with autism. Many individuals with autism, namely children, are victims of child sexual abuse. However, some adults with autism actually sexually abuse their child victims. What is going on inside their brains? I myself am a former abuser, and I have autism.
I myself am a sexually entitled adult, meaning a depraved and decadent sinner who is deserving of absolutely nothing, in relation to children or anyone else. I am a former sexual abuser of children, and deserve no special treatment due to having autism. My belief is that anyone can change if they so want to. Mentally disabled sex offenders are the hardest of sex offenders to treat. Most sex offenders are motivated to recovery, because they simply got into a situation that they regret, whereas abusers like me are identity abusers, meaning they identify by their abuse.
What drives an autistic sexual abuser? Most sexual abusers with autism start out by a fixation being triggered about a specific child. I did. It was like my whole world was centered around my child victim. I bragged about my attractions all the time, to everyone, and because I was autistic, and visibly so, everyone looked the other way. It was unfair to my child victims that an ADULT like me was getting favoritism just because I have a disability. It is a psychotic and delusional obsession with the child that I identified with to the core.
My victims have since forgiven me. Most totally exonerate me of all guilt, but one is still cautious. I feel sorry for the one that is cautious about me - her mother and everyone around her scolded HER for "discriminating" against my disability. She was bitten by a narcissistic abuser, and another mentally disabled abuser. I do not deserve forgiveness, but nonetheless, the children are going to forgive me, and I humbly and undeservingly accept forgiveness. I deserve any coldness I might receive from some of my victims.
I am guilty of sexual harassment in relation to children, which is a form of fornication by way of rape/sexual assault. I followed several young girls around the pool deck, and also touched a younger female cousin in the attic of my grandparents' home. Thus, I am a sex offender, of the unregistered type. Everyone excused me because I was autistic, and I deserved absolutely none of it.
Anyone can change. So can someone with autism who has a sexual abuse habit towards children. What drove me to change? Mainly the assertive input of children. I cared about how the children I was attracted to felt, but I projected my own biases onto them, and assumed that I could go somewhere with that attraction of mine. I needed to know how they really felt about me, and they told me, and I listened. A mentally disabled abuser sees themselves as on the level of their child victims, and so a scolding from the child will shock them into not doing that again. Just one assertion of rights from a child is enough to prevent a catastrophe.
The mentally disabled sex offenders who provoke children to anger through fornication will not inherit the Kingdom of God! Let them BURN in a Hell of fire and torment, suffering God's Wrath! Repent!
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