Autistic sexual abusers: What drives them?

Many people think that certain sexual abusers deserve a break. I myself am one of those sexual abusers that society thinks deserves a break. I hate it. It is flowery niceness thrown at me, while my victims are ignored. I have said this before, but I'll say it again - I will only accept forgiveness from my victims, and I don't deserve forgiveness from anyone for what I did.

My crimes are complex, as I am a multiple victim abuser. We will dissect one case of sexual abuse I created with my actions. K. was at the community pool that I belonged to then. I saw her, and she was kind to me, and so I crushed on her. I was 16, and so I assumed she was 12 but looked younger. I played a game with her that was non-sexual in nature. I then learned from her that she was 9. She became my "best friend", only I wanted more. I asked her when meeting her for her phone number (which she declined to provide - smart girl!), and that is because I wanted to go to her house and have a sleepover. Because she calmly but assertively said "no", I couldn't continue with my grooming process, and so I settled for friends. I followed her around the pool deck, waving to her out of flirtation, trying to create a relationship that wasn't there.

What I did is perhaps an epidemic in this country. What causes adults with autism to sexually abuse children? Social skills deficits that lead to the false belief that sexually abusing a child is okay, usually as a game or sort of play. Many people use this fact as an excuse for autistic abusers. However, the fact of the matter is that autistic and mentally disabled sexual abusers are the most resistant to change. Most lack moral internalization to the point where they simply do not get that such behavior is prohibited morally and legally. 

Autism, in the raw, is an entitled disorder. Thus, perpetrators with autism spectrum disorders are more likely to defend their abuse, due to the reward from the sexual pleasure and the pleasure from crushing on a child. The child themselves becomes a fixation in and of themselves, and the child is showered with lavish attention and then rape at the end of the wyck. Usually, these adults are toxic atheists who should become Christians due to their sinful lives.

Most pedophiles do not commit sexual abuse to the point of rape or sexual assault, and neither did I. Most pedophilic abuse of children involves antisocial "loitering", where older teenagers loiter around places where children gather, wanting to play with them, and oftentimes, the children let them play. We consider it abuse when the pedophile has intent to create a romantic relationship with the child victims. When a pedophile rapes or sexually assaults a child, it is usually due to severe intellectual or cognitive impairment, and usually, they don't understand the harm of their behavior, and most of the time, they never will.

I support prisons for these sexual abusers. The abuse isn't simply a slide in the abuser's backbone, but an autistic fixation about a person, namely a person that is completely unavailable for sexual purposes. Autistic fixations are very powerful, and they are ego-syntonic. Many times, sexual abusers with autism literally believe their child victim(s) are "in love" with them, meaning the obsession often reaches the level of delusion. There is no way to convince someone like that of the harm of their actions without a function that leads them to rock bottom. It is a sexual addiction to a child that is inherent and encompasses the abuser's identity. I've been there. I'm grateful I was not remanded into custody for harassment, because I don't deserve that kind of grace. I am a depraved and decadent adult deserving of absolutely nothing, from children or anyone else.

Let the autistic adult fornicators who sexually abuse children out of a delusional obsession BURN in a Hell of fire and torrents! Repent!