My struggle with adult sexual entitlement

 Many people here are worried about how I talk about the concept of adult power and control over children. Many here think I am too hard on myself, namely out advocates influenced by the false psychiatry of anti-children's rights. Anti-CR is not my friend at all, and I actually don't talk to them at all. Yet, they know how to make up a lie that competes with your truth. Members of this community should not believe a word those shapeshifters have to say, especially as going down to the underlords. I do struggle, but don't exactly struggle silently with adult sexual entitlement in the form of self-diagnosed pedophilic disorder.

What is this struggle like? Grounded in relation to children, convicted of one's place. Not as a pedophile, but as an adult, period. Every single adult is guilty merely for existing in relation to children, and is deserving of DEATH and PUNISHMENT for the entitlement, power, and control they have over children. All adults are entitled and wicked in relation to children.

Tightening the girdle in terms of embracing the dogma in children's rights corrects the setup of my childhood, which lacked structure, but also at the same time had parents and adults who claimed to be authority figures. They ruled over me as a child, so I refuse to rule over children, being better than who raised me. I, as a pedophile, already went in the opposite direction while struggling with habits of sexual/behavioral neglect.

What turned me around? Literally. A young girl at the pool I have yet to rejoin, who is made by evil anti-CR forces to feel guilty for standing up to me. So what if it was "just" an untoward glance? She has the right to be the boss of her own body even to that degree. I was scared, not angry, meaning I was having a panic attack, waiting for her to call the police so I could turn myself in for harassment or disorderly conduct, bracing myself for the worst - jail. That was the beginning of the end. No more seeking out young friends by randomly approaching children. 

Growth in faith was like spiraling into control, gathering the facts of your faith. I actually was a religious progressive for a few years before seeing that a lot of conservative thought is rooted in biblical law, especially non-entitlement attitudes and respect for the higher powers, meaning the governing authorities that are the federal government of the United States, and the governments of the several states that make up a federal union of states and territories. I became more conservative as I studied deeper into the Bible. I am still progressive on some issues, but in a moderate and conservative way. 

I am very strict with myself, I'd say. Not upset or angry with anyone, nor any child for that matter. I am conditioned like a bowl, meaning I do have pride that I hold back, and is held back naturally by how I am convicted. Pride is something you pull out, and tar your enemy with shocking statements of prowess towards abusers. However, I myself am very shy about praise. Picture a light being shined in your face, and raising your hands to it.

All adults need to be open about their struggles, and identify by their struggles instead of their strengths as parents, meaning not using the word "parent" at all as a first-person point of pride. Being an adult does not mean rights, but responsibilities for the adult, especially if they are a parent.

I am not upset with any child or myself. Just a strongly convicted adult.