Pedophilia awareness month: Why pedophilia is not the same as child sexual abuse

Many parents' worst fear is their child being sexually abused, usually while calling would-be perpetrators "pedophiles". However, what if it was your child being a pedophile. Most parents say they would oppose that sort of disorder in their children. What if your child developed the clinical disorder of pedophilia.

What is pedophilia? Pedophilia is not a form of narcissism, but instead is a form of autism that specializes in child smarts. Most individuals are generalizers in terms of knowledge, but an individual pedophile has a form of autism that specializes in knowledge about children. Ultimately, pedophilia is an immature parent in parallel format. If you see an adult man being kind and courteous to children, think pedophile. I myself fit the category of clinical pedophilia to a T, when pedophiles and pedophilia were understood in their original understanding. 

The Bible is silent on the concept of pedophilia. There was a term for "child saviors" in the early Greek and Aramaic, but those words are not found in the Bible. The Bible does deal with lust as a sin. However, the Greek root word denoting lust is έπιθυμέω (Latin: epithumeo) and refers not to ordinary sexual desire, but to sexual entitlement. It is one thing to look the look, and think the think later. But, there is a big difference between thinking the think and doing the deed. If you find yourself doing the deed with a woman or a child, you shouldn't have even approached her. Even if the sexual target is right there, it is the intent that counts as the approach.

The hatred of pedophiles, contrary to popular legend, did not start in the children's rights movement. The children's rights movement was looking to bring opposition, but the right kind. Most pedophiles are anti-spanking, and can relate to a child on their level. Most pedophiles have no anger at a child, and thus cannot fathom pro-spanking religious doctrine. 

How can you tell if a child is safe around a pedophile? Look at where the child is running to. If they run to you as the parent, and away from the pedophile, that means that the pedophile is unsafe. Pedophiles, when they are safe, are child magnets, and the children just run to them. 

I myself get mixed messages from children. They don't all run to me, but they don't hide from me either. I have a religious belief against speaking to children. The only way around that is if a child comes to me and wants to play. My religious opposition to speaking to children amounts to an infraction, but if the child treats me as a "creep", I know that I have done wrong. If I did play with a child, I would be a human ragdoll, being dragged into a game - such as hopscotch - I have to go with the child. However, if she did approach me for sexual reasons, I would be morally obligated to turn her down.

Most child sexual abuse is not committed as a career offense. Most of the time, sexual abuse of children is an opportunistic offense that has little to do with pedophiles. Most people who are aware of this nuance are trauma survivors. They were on the receiving end of the abuse, and so if they can seen nuance in their situation, I support them. The fact of the matter is that their abuse  was a normal desire for children that \is repressed, and with that desire coming out sideways, like a ton of bricks.

I myself like to point out that not every one of us as pedophiles has a squeaky clean record. I myself am non-deserving of appearances, and thus I answer to the court whenever being accused of being a pedophile. I myself also don't hide my gaze, and intentionally avoid acknowledging the parent when I look the look at their child. I am not allowed to hide my pedophilia from public visage, except to masturbate righteously. I also budget my words, and remain silent and shamefaced in my public demeanor. I am not afraid of the parents, as much as feel righteous terror in relation to children, and when they call me a "creep", I am caught in a silent stupor. I myself have a sexual harassment problem in relation to children, meaning I approached children sexually in order to flirt with a child. There is an investigation into my advances towards children, and I plan to fully cooperate with the authorities, thus opening my life up to the public. I was accused of rape, but what I did amounted merely to sexual harassment. I understand sexual harassment as a form of sexual assault involving unwanted sexual advances. Most pedophiles operate on the surface. Think the creepy dude who hides his face around  children. 

3 out of 4 pedophiles have not sexually abused a child by the North American research. I myself could have been kept away from my erotic target with stranger danger alone. However, 95% of child victims of sexual abuse know their attacker. But, when it is a stranger, think pedophile of the wrong kind. I myself have to do what is called the "bay of fundy" treatment, and that is because I have a clinical history of mania and impulsivity alongside a self-diagnosis of being a pedophile. I do not perceive this "bay of fundy" treatment as degrading at all. I deserve absolutely nothing in relation to children, and being convicted as a pedophilic adult alone centers my countenance. Maybe I needed a therapist to unload baggage, but most of the work I did myself. I identify strongly ss a pedophile who chooses the straight path in relation to children, meaning I know more than anyone how much of an actual choice it is to sexually abuse a child. It isn't in the cards, or predestined fate. It is simply a choice to avoid a child sexually, as I myself am capable of that choice under the right/wrong conditions.

I myself am a pedophile, and am out to the whole world as of late. I myself have my mother as my accountability partner. She is the type of mother to be easy to talk to about anything. She acknowledges that I am a pedophile, but knows of my choice not to sexually abuse a child. My mother probably feels more worried than she is willing to admit, and I welcome people to worry about me, as I am deserving of absolutely nothing but punishment in relation to children. I just ask that my right to be made known not be usurped. I want people to know what they are dealing with. I actually want people to worry about me concerning my pedophilia, and I'm simply there to listen and validate. I am people smart as a pedophile with autism, meaning in order to be child smart, you need to have some people skills on tab. The bay of fundy will come back, but only if a child wants me as a playmate. I literally did not understand the boundaries around children. Even if a child wants to play, it better be something like hopscotch, or else I will literally turn her down if she wants sexual favors.

The depraved and decadent, defiled adults who rape or sexually assault children will not inherit the Kingdom of God! Let them descend into torrents of Hell-fire prepared for Satan and his accomplices! Repent!