Pro-social PTSD, pro-social pedophile admission (in frequent open format)

I am a vigilante, for the rights of children, especially children lawfully battered by their parents. As a child protection officer, I use my reverent trauma. I admit both my pedophilia and trauma, with the trauma overshading the pedophilia, and the pedophilia being the entitled thread of my childhood trauma (antisocial traumatic dissociation). 

I admit pedophilia to the Whole Wide World out of pro-social honesty, to the point of public self-humiliation. Thinking of yourself as a good adult to children often makes you want things from them "because I am a good person, and I deserve things from children". So, I count myself as an entitled, wicked adult and strive to be perfect as a parent towards children, fighting parental entitlement within me, knowing I will never reach perfection in this lifetime, but the next for sure if I keep serving God through children. I use the medical label "pedophile" as a introspective device so that I know what I am, so I can tackle it and center it by presuming guilt in my wants in relation to children. No adult truly means well, but I admit that I don't mean well, because a part of me wants to have sex with a child, with other adults not meaning well by wanting to physically punish and control a child at some level. Look at our history before Moses - our nature as adults is not good in relation to children. We all as adults want to control children with one vehicle or another.

I observe parents, and nod to their fate, as if you are an entitled parent who spanks and punishes children, you are headed nowhere but "down". Pro-social reverse window, pro-social judgment. I act like God as I judge, taking note of what needs taking note of, and avoiding confrontation with the world, for I am not of this world, but of the next. God wants children's improvement, so he wants me here, for some reason or another.