Being a pedophile - and how it teaches me that all adults are flawed

I am a pedophile, and part of a group of people blamed for all child abuse everywhere by the uneducated masses. We in the children's rights community are now in the process of cautioning alarmed parents that pedophiles aren't the ones doing it, and that the majority of abuse is instead committed by a parent or parent figure. All adults are evil and wicked, not just a few, and American society is just now waking up to that cup of coffee.

All adults, without exception, are born with a depraved and wicked sin nature that is deserving of DEATH and DESTRUCTION merely for existing in relation to child, and will be cast into ever-burning Hell-fire. Only a few will be saved by the grace of Jesus Christ, through their own choices. The rest are deserving of punishment, just like adults have oppressed children for far too long.

What is it like being a pedophile, and combatting adult sexual entitlement? Same as choosing not to abuse a child by way of spanking or striking one's child, but perhaps easier due to the low-level of the tendency.  I can simply choose not to abuse children. It isn't resisting any "intense urges", but simply a choice. I believe in the Judaeo-Christian concept of personal responsibility. 

This to the point of martyrdom narcissism. I am that type of narcissist, by conditioning, in relation to children. Anything, anything, anything, my dear love. You mean everything, dear child. Healing as a pedophile is becoming more selfless as a parent or adult in relation to children.

I used to be a sexual menace and pest to children, in the form of romantic and limerent affections directed towards children. Such is referred to as spousification. I would project a future wife onto a young girl, and then follow her around, asking girls as young as 9 "for your number". The function of the behavior was to "escape", meaning antisocial traumatic dissociation. Now, I've learned that children cannot consent to even that. I was 16 when I went up to a young girl at a local pool, and asked for her number. I now know that if I did that to the wrong child, I'd be fired, meaning canned, meaning cited for harassment or disorderly conduct.

I am not a good adult. I don't mean well around children, and claiming such is pompous and prideful. No adult truly means well around children. We need to remember that ALL adults are culpable for abuse, not just a few. None of us adults should even exist, yet we do, so we should treat children with respect.