Many people think all pedophiles are clingy and pedantic. Much of how we survivors view our abusers id pinning their own traits onto them as a means of control them. One would be surprised about how twisted sexual fixation and infatuation feels, when described. It is a locational desire, by way of pro-social/antisocial God complex, in terms of purview.
I wanted to know where Kaylee was at all times. That's how I may follow a child with my eyes, with intent merely to supervise even if I can't because the law won't let me. She's so pretty in that summer dress in July, or in those short shorts. In an entitled state, I might want feel a stomach yearning when a girl that was really pretty in the store went around the aisle. I didn't chase her, but she could have gotten offended (she didn't).
That's ultimately my struggle as a recovering sexually entitled adult and pedophile. Following her with my eyes, and things are a lot better. That stomach yearning is a bad sign, so I do the opposite of what it tells me to.
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