Regret parent: Why regret is not sin

 I am currently in a feud about nothing with Robbyn Peters Bennett. Quite a few years ago, she was arrested for abuse similar to mine, but crossing over the legal line. She served one and a half years for domestic battery against her son. I've known this about her for years. I remember it when I see her name and platform, but in a merely remembering way, not a way that deems her a bad person. I simply know she did something that marks her as a parent who inflicted my abuse onto her child. I don't like that at all, but now a few fellow non-offending pedophiles are speaking over MY trauma on this issue. The mere presence of that past mistake means very little as long as I have good righteous judgment rules. I actually presume innocence in all parents, like star judgment, beyond a reasonable doubt.

I regret too. That's what the word "pedophile" means to me. Not all sexual abuse is illegal, and not all sexual abusers that come to light go to jail for long prison sentences. Most pedophilic offenders operate on the surface, as sexual harassers of children, usually girls. It is entitled want to the point of pursuit. They wish to ingratiate themselves with the child herself, and/or the parents themselves. One incident forever changed my perspective on whether children want me "swooning", when I looked at a friend, Kaylee, in a sexualized position, and she told me "why are you looking at me, creep?" I immediately jumped, and ran to the fence, assuming that she would have the police cite me for harassment or disorderly conduct. I didn't know why I was drawn to her, because she sure didn't look like Kaylee...I then stopped trying to befriend girls at the pool. She has nothing to beat herself up about. I just shouldn't go right up to girls who aren't even adults yet to ask for their number, ask for personal information, or pester them in other ways. She was the victim in that situation, since she showed expressions of fear. Any child who is afraid of an adult like that is an abuser.

Regret adult is an adult who regrets a certain incident or incidents that were abusive in nature towards a child. Robbyn should feel remorse, but only because remorse is what drives one away from doing the same mistake over and over again. An antisocial psychopath is in and out of jail for the same habit or pattern of behavior. Think the low-life bum who keeps burglarizing and invading homes - that's a psychopath. A pedophile is an empathetic psychopath, meaning sexual aggression conflated with empathy, meaning their empathic feelings might be clouded by their sex drive. They are sympathetic to their victims on the level of child batterers, and are driven by "stress", which leads the pedophile (usually a permissive father figure) to "escape" to the child, and hide from the adult world, which is too scary due to social skills deficits that may have to do with autism.

My mother is not a friend of the pedophile, today, but her son with the condition. She humanizes the condition with her mental health lens, listening reflectively in a Rogerian (person-centered). She does not like that I have those tendencies, but is "glad you were working on them". It is much like VirPed acceptance, but more conservative in terms of accountability. It is a lot of trust, meaning she trusts that I'll go on the right websites, because I can be so honest about it with her. There's no distance, but in that accountable way - I think situations like this occur far more than anyone ever wants to believe. She takes the attitude that time tells all, and the more I don't abuse children or go on illegal websites, the more likely I am to continue that healthy pattern of life, and then the pedophile becomes insignificant except for treatment purposes...It is a broad, vague shelter, meaning my mother supervises at a very low level, while trusting that I don't abuse a child, and that if I go up to a child, she's "kick you in the nuts" or something like that. My mom would be furious if she got a notice from the Internet company saying I went on websites that documented child abuse or replicas of such. It's like the rod of correction in the Bible for young adults - disownment and strong disappointment from one's child being named an abuser would be the ultimate punishment. That's what the rod of correction meant in the Early Church, and to Christians today - complete disownment of one's adult child due to their way of life.

We all regret things, as adults, that we have done to children. Pedophiles included.