Yes, I am a parent, but not the one that is nice to other parents, except those close to me who really aren't the stereotype, but have children of their own, thus being parents themselves, but only naturally/legally. Some parents are symbolic, meaning that is their personality. This is usually associated with pedophilic tendencies of some sort, somewhere on the pedophilic spectrum...Not all abusers are monsters, meaning not everyone who abuses a child is the sleazy type.
I was programmed like a parent a few years ago, but an anxious one. So many children crying in the store, so much for me to handle. I just felt the need to do something, and I just couldn't, and I just couldn't, and I just couldn't, SO HELP ME DIE! I CAN'T take all the riff raff against children. I even looked at happy families, and I was terrified of them. I wanted to be the one to save them, but the law wouldn't let me
That sort of attitude is one a survivor can relate to, but with my pain instead being in bystander format. I myself, however, dissociated in an antisocial way from my traumatic pain - sexualizing the girls. The two were separate conditions, but when I thought about a girl I liked being punished, I got sick and tried to vomit in a trash can. It was that type of nauseating fear of a child I deem my own, according to my instincts, being punished.
What I committed was typical of sex offenders who test as ultimate victims - sexual harassment, in the form of harassment behavior, such as a course of conduct of an adult creeping or prowling to try to "be friends" with a child target/victim.
Yes, a parent can abuse a child. Every single adult in this country is capable of child abuse, as every single adult has a parental lobe attached to their brain, and all parental lobes are conflated with some sort of parent control over a child, usually physical in base. Some parents control sexually, leading to antisocial "freedom", where parents give children absolute freedom, and punch out anyone who steps in to set limits. These aren't gentle parents in this community doing this, but individuals who aren't even gentle parents, misusing children's rights ideas to give their child a childhood "I wish I had". Usually, this only involves being a little too soft on children, and knowing that weakness, but also knowing punishment doesn't help either. In extreme cases, this sort of permissiveness involves child sexual abuse.
I myself might abuse a child by letting them take the caregiver role towards me. I have autism, and that condition generally brings out that response even in younger children. I might like being pampered and babysat by a teenage girl, but I am there for her, not the opposite, thus I would have to be the one providing for needs, being dragged into, perhaps, a board game of some sort.
All parents abuse, or else you're not really a parent in my eyes. Repent, for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand!
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