Religious gaslighting - I am not your abuser, Nadine (tests show)

 Yep, that ended the tape. That word. 

We have evidence that Nadine Block thought I was like her son, meaning her, abuser. She was abused by an individual with autism who abducted her son, and she wanted to make sure I didn't have the same exact case of autism he had.

I judge suspects as innocent until proven guilty, beyond a reasonable doubt, with "presume"/"reason to believe" judgment, in incremental format. If I have any reason to believe you are innocent, I go on it.

This is about me not kicking out the person who dreamed up the youth rights framework, for a sealed "search party" incident.

I do not pronounce guilt onto Ms. Block, as though I can perceive virtually anything as a personal slight in terms of accusation. The higher powers just wanted Amy W. out of this movement, and for me not to support children's rights. I do. I support children's rights.

My posts may be more sparse in frequency, and that is due to a wake-up gaslighting attack, meaning one that would have prompted me to commit suicide if I had a kamakaze exception to my anti-suicide beliefs. No, everyone cares about me, meaning most people here and elsewhere, care about me, and worry about me, as a community. Taking my own life when offered out of pain would have hurt a lot of people.

If he could drive a truck, I'm not the right profile, Nadine. I don't drive, and if you made me drive a Goodwill truck, I would get into an accident. 

I was worried because what she was describing appeared in many ways to be an ultimate victim - victimizing victim. I was a victimizing victim, meaning I used real issues and traumas I had as a way to say "I am a good person" for merely existing, in a way that led to the thought "I could never do anything wrong, because I am a good person, and only other people can be abusers. The abuser is everyone but me" with the last part referring to my anti-spanking beliefs then. A victimizing victim is not really a victim, but a covert narcissist - that guy who is angry with authority all the time, and has staunch anti-authority beliefs, but not in the centered way that survivors do. They make this community look bad. If not abusing children, these victimizing victims might be frequent callers to child abuse hotlines. Basically, I have to distance from leftist attitudes towards self-esteem to avoid abusing others. That doesn't mean destroy yourself or harm yourself with religion, but center yourself in a way that doesn't take credit. Anti-credit narcissism is what I now embrace, meaning I usually conflate my accomplishments with a group, so it isn't so scary.

The tape was simply confused. I didn't think I'd have the tape for the rest of my life, but I was unsure when it would leave, yet I knew not to panic too much or it would set things off. I wouldn't have made it a few years ago, before I became a Christian. Think the fire-alarm type jokester attitude. I just eliminated that anxiolytic peacekeeper, meaning I had one and I identified by it in medical terms for its destruction as an element of my psyche. I was anxious, and my adult sexual entitlement problem was a distraction from a child abuse existence trauma, focusing on the type of lawful abuse I struggled with.