The many layers of my anti-spanking anger

 What do I often think when I think of anti-spanking anger. Parents at school. Pointer stick slams on desk. Words emphasized every other word, in angry tirade against "the parents", but while being the calmest, nicest guy you ever met. When you understand a predatory pedophile, you understand my trauma. Most with anti-spanking trauma are not nice people, meaning most child sex offender bear my exact same problem, but did not seek mental health services in time, thus I count it against them given the counts against the child.

How am I on the surface, with this sort of anger? Calm. Rational. I often feel nothing, in fact. Nothing but peace and quiet. No music in the car. Just quiet and serenity, perhaps hiking near the lake, or around the beach at a day use area. The issue, in such situation, is removed from me, in a way I can calmly and rationally protect children, and raise alarm when necessary. Alarmism is the nature of pedophilia, in my experience, or at least those of us that are higher risk. I am self-aware, which is what is necessary.

Underneath that calmness is ANGER at spanking, meaning I will fucken strangle you and shove you against a ma-fucken wall if you as much as raise your voice to your child one more time. You see me coming towards you with a closed fist, and see that tooth on the floor - that's yours, just for existing anywhere, meaning anywhere, meaning anywhere outside of a prison, you depraved and entitled spoog. I'D LOVE TO SEE YOU TORTURED AND CRYING! CRY! CRY! CRY, parent, CRY! Just like you make your child cry outwardly, and just like how you make me cry at a low level that you'll never see - because you'll take advantage of it.

I WANT TO BEAT YOU BACK, and I want you to be punished with rules, rules, rules back, and so I seek to do so with my pro-social authoritative/feign - authoritative parenting is basically follow the rules, or get punished, and unless your parents were "unfair" and "unclear" - subjective terms - you could be punished for anything that the parent perceived as an infraction, meaning I reverse it. On them. With their child as proxy, but with me perceiving on behalf of the child most of the time. That's what Law is for. Hope for Divine Justice for these children.

I don't give a flying f*ck about simply "what works" and "what doesn't". What kind of husband would provide for his wife that way? How about what builds, bridges, and (hopefully not) rebridge connections with children...If you abuse a child by way of corporal punishment, and defend it, I want nothing to do with you. Think a pointer finger out my door. That's how I feel about you entitled pro-spanking parents. Pro-social avoidance, pro-social consignment, pro-social close door. You tell me about that sick child abuse habit of yours the wrong way, and I close the door. Talk about your trauma instead, and show willingness to not be a violent parent, then I care.