Robbyn, do NOT josh me like that

 So you were playing the perpetrator, even...(chopped off) though you weren't intending to be. Yes? I think so, therefore you are guilty of a much more minor form of abuse.

My righteous judgment only documents what is visible, and what is visible alone can color what is not visible. You can do whatever you want with this information, as long as you don't turn me into anti-CR lackeys.

It seems a whole bunch of you were pretending to be the stereotypical survivor, in a way that shocked me - I was shocked and surprised at how horrendous the attitudes of people who use their trauma to educate us about the rights of children can be...The tape was set up to revictimize me with Matthew's deserving children's rights trauma from our survivors, which I wished on him in retrospect, because I am verbally and spiritually abusing him in this text in the form of pro-social evil for harming and abusing friends of mine. Matthew, go KYS for turning me on colleagues of mine, because I am hurting you with words as the nasty conservative Christian that I am. Expecting a visit anytime, parent underling...I could parents in loco parentis as well. I give no consent to any force imposed upon me. I want you to be afraid of me, meaning afraid of me, meaning afraid of me, for YOU are the one that hates women, you sick a**. You will be destroyed on the last day, and sent to Hell on your, because it DOES exist, and YOU are going there if you don't choose to wisen up and leave pedophiles alone. They should have left you alone, so model that ideal to me - if that sick, depraved pup was a pedophile at all (just a plain old religious peacekeeper to me - and the worst kind, who speaks in "-oon" suffixes).

Bay bridge in tape. Railroad. No, Robbyn and all, I'm not really that angry at you. I can get very worked up in the moment, but then just quieten later and go entirely back to normal once a heated argument like that is over - and then I might lose a friend if that is the case. When would an argument like that happen  anyway? It started with a half-apology from Robbyn. I am claiming it as a very minor form of abuse. Abuse is an existent concept, Robbyn, but not all abuse is the same, but at the same time is perceived by the beholder - think on the level of dust, but heavily. Leading someone on a path like that is unfair. I wouldn't objectify you like that, or at least not while believing it literally, and only in an argument. Just speak to me directly. I am confused by this talking in circles, and telling riddles. Just get to the point, Robbyn and all. So you are afraid of rape? I do admit that I have risk in that regard. Lust rape. Not even attracted to women your age. Think frat boy. Think blurred boundaries. Think young girl. Yes, that's something I might struggle with lightly - because I know it's wrong. Fantasy doesn't drive me - it drives me AWAY from inflicting harm. It is centering the drives away from the child. I don't project anything onto young girls apart from "sun tan spray". Yes, just the girl. Nothing else (on?). I like nudity, but since you rarely get that, skin showing. I want her to be herself, and I want her to impose her identity on mine so I can defend her child identity and care for her like an L. Stophand when your eyes or track wanders. I am afraid of her, because I don't want to let her down. Coppertone. Swimsuit pics on Bing/Google. I want her to be my best friend, since that's all I'll get, in real life (I have to go to another dimension, in my head, to get more).