"Who is the abuser within you": Using this concept to understand my pro-social self-hatred (in the reverse)

"The abuser within you" is a framework for children's rights traumatics to work on, meaning see whether they are an abuser or not. This is actually handy for the narcissist, who may be very hesitant to admit abusive traits except in an entitled, victimizing way. What about victim pedophiles? I test as a victim with a capital 'V'. The abuser within me is then dialed in the direct opposite direction.

There is a reason why I believe I and all other adults are marked for deletion. I am - if I don't keep up the good work, meaning I'm not, because I've saved myself with my own respectful choices in relation to children, which cleanse me of filth and gook, purifying my soul of adult sexual entitlement and impurity. I don't feel "strangulated" or "repressed" by God or Christianity.

It is gauging yourself as the highest on the level as an abuser, and then using the input of children to "break the ice" in terms of relations with or alongside children. This is not just one child's fleeting opinion from a discussion, but a preponderance of opinion, setting a precedent, in order to know how you stand around child. In my personal experience, one child showed me respect, and the others were afraid of me, found me annoying, or else didn't 

Most adults in America who have pro-child values use the model of indirect privilege, meaning improving yourself and seeing "the children" as a collective to protect and provide for. I can see it that way, but judge myself based on how children might react to me. That, yes, can mean checking out young girls, and knowing that they just let it roll off. Why is this? I don't stare like I used to. I just look briefly, and check out how hot they are.

I am generally a calm, disciplined, centered man, who is shut up and quiet for the Lord in relation to children. I'm not unhappy while being quiet. I think it is an extended respite from conversation, and from my own voice. I can feel anything I want, as long as it doesn't lead to harming children or others. Sometimes, I am capable of bringing out the law, and waking somebody up, namely an abusive parent.

We all have an abuser within us, in relation to children. All adults, by default, are marked for deletion due to their undeniably evil and wicked nature in the eyes of God, due to how children have been treated since the beginning of time. Children? Up, always. Adults? Down, unless they choose to repent, and treat their child with respect next to God, ending their abusive ways. Abuse is everywhere, and it could be anyone. Any adult is most likely to be the abuser, and the child in tow a victim of the worst yet best kind. Repent, you parents, for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand!