My anti-abuse trauma

 Most pedophiles are "abuse" pedophiles, meaning their trauma is being seen as an abuser. Pedophilia is not simply a sexual abuser, but a specific condition associated with such - child-centered autism, but a dark, nihilistic, sexually variety. I am actually a different traumatic - anti-abuse.

What does the word "abuse" mean to me? Picture a stop sign, and you get the point. It is exactly what children's rights advocates want to see in a pedophile, whilst them forgetting the reasoning why I am that way.

Anti-abuse trauma comes in two forms, disorganized and centered. In disorganized form, I was a traumatic abuser with my parental rights traumas. I was far more outgoing. I enjoyed academic pugilism, and would debate my teachers in high school about the issues of the world. That attitude towards life also came with bragging about past and ongoing exploits with young girls.

I am an abuser, and I must purge myself of impurity, malice, and uncleanness by choosing to live life the right way, based on Christian family values, and I do so with words such as "sin" and "abuse". These words, from myself or someone else, issue a chilling, charring effect.

I embrace reasonable accusation of child abuse and other forms of abuse as an advocate, defining abuse as anything that the plaintiff defines as abuse, based on the intent of the defendant. When questioned or accused of abuse, I have the right to either plead guilty and accept a penalty, or else provide a defense as to why I didn't do it or why the moral crime is understandable. It is an exchange - gaslighting, you could say.

If you think I am about to abuse a child, or am currently doing so, come up to me directly. If I defend my rights at all, be suspicious. You should receive a concerned response. If you don't think at all that I will take responsibility, call PA ChildLine at 1-800-932-0313.